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( 4:07 a. m. ) Anónimo

i have no idea who's who. this is daph again. can we sign off? or mention who we are? like you read through stuff, then you try to make a list of people who write in these class discussions stuff, then you narrow it down further to People Who Make Extravagant Use Of The Word Fuck, then further to People Who Might Watch Baywatch, then People Who Take Note of Humpings in Phone Booths - then you realise that wait. whoa. that's the whole class. or thereabouts, only some of us aren't so proud of it.

i think - i think - that the problem is that we don't like things that have a very extreme view of things. and things that fall uinder that category would be stuff like sex drugs and violence, homosexuality, all that - like if movies are made based on issues like that, the people who made the film would naturally have something big to say about them, and they're usually something pretty moving, or at least pretty explicit, or even just deliberately trying to be controversial. like eyes wide shut. and obviously, for fear of indecent exposure on the weak-minded plebeians of this great country, they wouldn't push these things. but, once again, dammit - LATE NIGHT TV. R-RATINGS. arggh. was it charmaine who sent the thing? the one that started with 'yes that was risse. anyway yup im bloody pissed off...'? thing is, we were talking in class today, and it's pretty impossible to try to sell the arts here if you place restrictions. and we have to place restrictions, being singapore, and therefore it is impossible to say that we encourage the arts wholeheartedly. you can't have art without liberation. and it isn't pretty anymore - if it's pretty it's dumped, because we've unearthed the era of funky depression or something. they used to create art because they had visitations by their art. like charles dickens would wait for oliver twist to come to tea and tell him about his life. now that's just psycho. and i recognise that it is pretty psycho, but it's pushing your mind, and creating. isn't that what it's supposed to be about? now it's like yeah, run around naked and go mad, but within a four-by-four metre boundary or something. the whole arts fest thing and trying to become arty, it's really hypocritical, if you look at it that way. and it can only cater to a small group of people, because the arts scene, the accessible arts scene, the sort you'd more of ten than not run into if you just flipped open a magazine and picked out the first play you looked at, is based on being so arty that it becomes elitist. and it's really the coward's way out - experimentalism and symbolism and all they depend on, they're just easier to create, and easier to get credit for than if you tried to tackle beauty. plays that are straight, mature comedies, professional stuff - people i know keep telling me that i can't do it in school, i won't have a big enough audience, because it won't be accessible to our audience. bullshit. this stuff is the most accessible sort of plays. straight-laced, direct drama, wit, melodrama, whatever - it is the most basic and also the most difficult of theatre and art and entertainment or whatever. and it isn't that people don't get it. it's that people don't bother to. i know you'll disagree, because yes, grassroots is hip, and bringing a personal touch to everything we churn out is good these days, i not stupid is absofuckinglutely brilliant, and oh surely, surely, surely - experimentalism is a higer form of art than mere theatrics. but people are so used to this sort of thing that they forget simplicity. in singapore when we see a play that really wouldn't stick out too much on the west end, on broadway, we think it's refreshing. we praise it to the skies in newspapers and magazines. but they get about three lines of sypnopsis in a uk time-out guide, and people there go anyway, because people are accustomed to the fact that theatre is accessible, that theatre is not something you go and be completely baffled by but blown over by it's incomprehensible artistic value. people like that - that's why when we get things like singin in the rain, peasouper, the international comedy fest, people here go, and people have a wonderful time. they don't go home tortured by angst and violence. they don't need to sit in their seats after the curtain and start pondering life's mysteries. the fact is that the censorship board has such a hard time not because of our audience or their stuffiness, but because of our artists, who try to believe so much in art that they've put it in a box, and put that box in a vicious cycle.

( 6:14 a. m. ) clarisse

yes that was risse. anyway yup im bloody pissed off with the censorship board as well - id rather they just make everything r(a) or r or whatever. like whatever man - who the hell are they to judge what is restricted (artistic) and just restricted? ... isn't sex just sex. sexual innuendo is still sex. they should make baywatch r(a) for indecent exposure, dammit. i hate baywatch. ...and didn't singapore show lock, stock and two smoking barrels before - come on, they should bloody show ALL the films they can lay their hands on that won something at cannes! or whatever festival! i mean if they WON something, they've gotta have SOME substance. and they must be good. ... what the hell is wrong with them. anything that comes their way they call 'subversive' and happily throw away. ah fuck. oh and talking about sex drugs and violence - THEY showed that latest quentin tarantino film (i can't remember the name of it) and made it nc-16. and it had a very nice shot of this guy humping his knocked-up girlfriend in a phone booth. wow. ... -mutters-

i think to alot of singaporeans singapore is the world. i remember talking with andi about this. it's kind of sad. it shouldn't be that way. if people can't get out of the country, the easiest way would be to BRING it to them, wouldn't it? people here know so much about other countries' economies and all that shit related to business and money and science, but nooooooo no one gives a shit about the arts. so much for building the esplanade. nothing they show there is actually educational, anyway. anyone read today's article in life! about women in the arts? hahahaa i think it's quite true that all we're doing is using the same themes over and over again. we need new blood. new life. NEW THEMES. new MINDS, for god's sake. we need a fucking new government. -bangs wall- anyway, if you think about it, WHAT THE HELL IS SO EDUCATIONAL ABOUT R&J, ANYWAY? how the fuck can you be THIRTEEN-FUCKING-YEARS-OLD and FALL IN LOVE HAVE SEX AND KILL YOURSELF WITHIN THREE DAYS?!!?! if they're gonna be so damn UPPITY about censorship and all that shit how the hell can you promote such a text and use it in your education system when it's educating all the wrong values? ...

oh by the way, did you know that besides america, singapore has the largest aircraft fleet in the world? (no of course they don't keep it here in singapore, we're so fucking small anyway) they have like god knows how many aircraft in god knows how many neighbouring countries. why do you think they keep sending army boys overseas for 'training'? oh this is true, by the way. my dad has a friend in the british air force, quite a high up guy, had dinner with him yesterday and he told me. ahahhaha. i think the only thing the government is good for is defending singapore. which isn't a bad thing, actually. =D at least they're good for something. hai =p

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( 5:28 a. m. ) Anónimo

thi is gonna be a long maoil.

ARRGGGGHH. YES. WHO WAS IT WHO SENT THE THING ABOUT THE SIX FEET UNDER EP? i agree. agree. AGREE. was it risse? this is daph by the way. or is there some way to tell? i can't figure out who wrote anything. anyway - ARGGGHH. i am so daned pissed off with the fucking board of censorship - you know lock, stock and two smoking barrels? yeah - i've managed to miss it six times in my life when it was on tv, twice in london, once in hongkong, twice in malaysia, and finally once in singapore yesterday. DO YOU KNOW HOW ANNOYING IT IS. VERY. ANNOYING. i MANAGED to cacth like five minutes of it, and like there waas practically no dialogue because they were busy beeping out all the fucks - as in the word, not, umm. - and forgot to add in sound or something. like they have no concept of late-night tv. THE KIDS ARE ASLEEP, YO. (wait. -i'm- under sixteen. OH SHOOT ME.) did anyone tape it? ugh. so then i go to hmv, thinking i can get the vcd if i can't get it on tv, then i look around for like half an hour, cant find it, go to the counter woman, and she goes 'oh sorry lock stock is banned in singapore'. 'sorry, what?" 'lock, stock and two smoking barrels, right? it's banned in singapore.' 'what? why? the guy ritchie film?' 'singapore doesn't allow any films that revolve around sex, drugs and violence, it doesn't pass the board of censorship.' and then she like brushed me off. then i fihured we were getting pretty chummy, so i told her that most romantic comedies were based on sex anyway, like at the end of the day all they wanna do is get into each others pants, and she sort of whinnied. and theN THERE's the stupid huit femmes thing where they cut the two women kissing, and then they hadthis movie on hbo called come together - no,NO, they meant it nicely - and it's actually a pretty long movie and they shortened it to like five seconds or something. i mean, i understand why they don't like sex drugs and violence, but what if you want to watch the movie? you just wanna watch the movie. why is it so hard to just want to watch the movie. I WANT TO WATCH THE MOVIE. so in the end i got snatch instead, which -gasp- yes ISN'T about drugs, but still about the london underground weedy mafia who smoke and deal with drugs anyway,and some stealing of diamond thing. so yeah, felony is fine? and they have wild things. which just boggles the mind. maybe they're trying to appear discerning or something - like oh, we can weed out the subtexts and the subtle influences of the cinema, and we're trying to protect our innocent youndters from knowing anything about the outside world. in fact, there is no world. if you step outside singapore you'll fall into space. we're a flat plain. the horizon is evil. bleh. blehhhh.

and in responce to the homosexuality thing bisexuality is pretty much the most honest form of looking at relationships, isn't it? you don't judge by what's...outside. but then again i guess it's just not comfortable. but -then- again, that's only because we've been brought up with the idea that it isn't. so it is. or should be. and it isn't even discrimination. it's just plain..bigotry. bah. OH. AND. AND. i mean you look at all the stuff we have on tv anyway - baywatch, for bloody example. they only care about showing. like if you -have- sex, then it's baaaad. but they condone sexual tension and undertones and innuendoes, they pretend to even be accepting and encouraing of things like shakespeare's r&j (the play) because it'll take singpare to a new plateau and elevate us into a new dimension of artistic culture or some shit but in our hearts we know we can't because anything too subversive might lead to wayward ideas, and we're too tiny and defenseless to have wayward ideas and nothave them erupt into civel war or soething. you know i'd prefer if they just made everything R(A), then we could at elast look forward to good stuff when we hit 18. or it is 21. it'll just be the same old crap. and they don't care about their movies. they don't care how they'll affect the quality or the meaning or the presentation of a film when they just chop it up and push it to audiences with jumbo hot dogs sets and top-up drinks. eergh. errgggh. hate them. stupid.

( 11:19 p. m. ) clarisse

yincognito. hahaha =] anyway i think we've yeah covered everything already. or well most of it. all we end up doing is bitching about the same things! gack! it gets boring. anyway i read in life! this morning that SCV doesn't wanna show the next episode of six feet under because the singapore broadcasting authority states that anything containing the themes of drug abuse and homosexuality cannot be screened in singapore. i feel like telling them to go fuck themselves. ... as i reiterate the point about having a much-educated populace that is supposed to be able to think for themselves, i can't help thinking they still treat us like children. for all their talk about not discriminating, isn't that already some form of discrimination? they teach children in school to not discriminate against people of different races, because after all skin colour doesn't determine your ability to perform or work (and i totally agree with that) - so how come people can't accept the fact that no matter if they think homosexuality is wrong or unnatural (or whatever shit, i will choose not to remember that ruth is trying to become lesbian, albeit unsuccessfully), a person's ability to work or perform cannot be judged by who he loves or who he has sex with? what message are we sending out to our children? the message they're sending out now is that homoseuxality is bad, and homosexuality is unacceptable. ... you don't have to condone it, you just have to accept that homosexuality doesn't affect a person's intelligence or performance. there's a large difference. this is absurd.

was planning to go write into straits times about this, but then decided that since i'm bloody fifteen and they probably wouldn't take me seriously at all anyway, and that i'm probably blowing it out of proportion that i wouldn't write in.

i feel strangely ironic.

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( 6:19 p. m. ) Anónimo

hmm like i said i think everyone's kinda braindead now mugging for Os and such so they have no time for interesting discussions.. =)

i'm in the library now on a totally disgusting computer. supposed to be having chinese now or smth bah. lalala. i'm super bored.

and i think the discussions we've started are mainly like all covered already and i've ranted on about them alot and so have a lot of us so we're all sick of saying the same thing. huixuan is peering at the screen. go away! -thwack- go get your own class blog!

point being what we're discussing is the !#)^)*#&$^(*@^&! education system and since we can't do anything to change it (what, a nation wide revolution of 15 yr olds?) we're going round in circles and the discussion has turned into a bitching session about the government and such. hm. plus the major irony is that we hate the emphasis on studying and we hate the chinese syllabus but you all are mugging like crap for the O levels. =)

and another irony is everyone saying too much emphasis is being put on results and such yet when you do badly you cry. yeah. life is just weird.

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( 5:15 p. m. ) inventing

what happened to all the interesting discussions?
died after we moved to a blog.

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( 5:15 p. m. ) inventing

what happened to all the interesting discussions?
died after we moved to a blog.

( 5:40 a. m. ) Anónimo

helloooo i'm bored again. and don't kill me for using pink cos it's the only colour code i can commit to my failing memory. -beams-

so much for intelligent discussion going on around here.. i think we're all too braindead. normal chinese people from too much stoning and higher chinese ppl from fried brains.

ah well. good luck to you people anyway. =) if you're reading this.

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( 3:15 a. m. ) heroyin.

okay. risse HOWWWWW did yu change de name?
hahaha i still dunno how. .....

( 5:14 a. m. ) Anónimo

hey!!
why is my name 'we kill'????
someone teach me how to change it!
*pokes risse*

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( 5:13 a. m. ) Anónimo

yayyyy!!
i found out how to log on! i rock man=)
why issit so empty huuuuuh???
*sulks*

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( 3:03 a. m. ) clarisse

okae nevermind i figured it out. ...i feel quite dumb ahhahahah

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( 3:03 a. m. ) clarisse

someone tell me how the hell do i change my name. I HATE SEEING CLARISSE FONG THERE BAH. ....sulk.

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